Did it fall out or did I just get a complex?

Do you remember when you were a kid and everything was so simple? No bills,no responsibilities (apart from a goldfish or a rabbit maybe) and the only thing that you needed to 'work' at was extending your bed time "just five minutes more, I promise i'l go to bed after this programme, just need to finish this drink and il go up".

I'm not moaning about my current situation, I was pondering over my lack of imagination. You see,today I did a very 'growed up' thing and went shopping for house trinkets. A new rug and some nice looking bits and bobs to make the house pretty. Well,whilst at the second location which was a garden centre by the way, I couldn't help overhear a little girl who was around the age of 4 or 5 ,playing a game of 'jungle animals' amongst the potted house plants section. She was fully engrossed in this game (of which she was the only player), making lion noises, laughing and jumping out at her family members who were busy picking the best seeds to plant in their new greenhouse.

It took me back to the time I used to run a farm single handed when I was 5 to the age of 10. Now this farm in itself was pretty large, I mean I had about 8 horses, 12 cows, a few field's of sheep and some farm hands to help me along the way. You think I'm joking? Well, I'm not, however this farm did consist of miniatures and were made of moulded plastic.  Now I used to play with this farm set for hours on end, creating extreme adventures and some real unique 'timmy fell down a well' situations.

Now, like I said, I used to play with this farm set and my Ghostbusters or Thundercats for hours! However, I remember going over to my aunties one day and being asked by my 3 year old cousin to play action man with him. I can remember this really well as this 'scene' in my life was the realisation that I was 'to old' to play. I held action man in the left hand and Esmerelda in the right ( don't ask) and stared at them...............

Now I'm sure at that point my 3 year old cousin probably thought I was weird. Can you imagine being that age and looking at your older cousin in awe and then watching them staring like a tool at your favourite toy with a look of total confusion on their face.

So here is the question, did I drop my imagination at some point between primary or high school, or did I simply develop a sense of social awareness. Did I suddenly no longer have the ability to create the most amazing stories in my mind, or did I simply just start to worry about who was watching me? A right of passage or a complex? ......

You decide.

Sunday's pondering

So,its howling outside,wind is apparently 60mph and its pissing down. So I decided to stay in bed and watch a film guilt free. Now, when I say guilt free I mean I know i'm not doing wrong but I suffer from social obligation. I have a stinking cold and haven't slept properly in days. However due to this 'social obligation' I often feel as though I am in the wrong for not visiting everyone I know and have ever met on my day's off. I have been told that this is stupid,however O.C.D rears it's ugly head and then the guilt kicks in. Anyway, back to the film, I decided to watch a film that I have been told is well worth a viewing called 'In to the wild',a film about a young graduate who decides that due to his hatred of his parents lies and awareness of social standing,he posts his collage fund off to charity and becomes a traveler. He travels all around america and makes friends along the way ( including a special friendship with kristen stewart in her underwear) . Now eventually he ends up Alaska where he lives off the land and takes up residence in a converted school bus that is equipped with a wood fire and mattress and to be fair looks like quite a nice little place to 'put his hat' so to speak.
This film has breathtaking scenery and an amazing storyline,and the fact its a true story just made the film even more thought provoking. Now,I wont tell you the ending as if you haven't seen it then It's a definite must see,but their was one thought that was going through my mind the whole way through the film. All the enlightened literary quotes,the amazing adventures, the spectacular views and closeness he developed with nature and all I could think about was how the heck did that bus end up in the middle of nowhere?!!! Seriously! I mean there must have been a road nearby?!! If you see the film then you will see what I mean. And thanks to the ending I'm still thinking about it! And it's still raining,so I guess i'l just stay in today.

Fumigation

Why is it that cat's can sleep all day and then the moment you sit down,relax,with a nice cup of tea,put on a film and get comfortable under a blanket,do they decide it's time to do a big crap in the litter box and run around screaming about it!

Big blue has done and almighty kitten rock and is now running around (whilst smacking around a bottle top-cat toy not dirty house rubbish) screaming like a siren-i swear if you could translate it she would be saying " its stinks it stinks ,run for cover,your about to pass out due to toxic cat crap,open the windows!!".
If it wasn't pouring down outside and cold enough to store penguins(not planning on stealing one like those other welshie's),I would open the window. Instead I am forced to suffer this noise ,and stink.Good job I have selective hearing.

On Repeat

Well after the much anticipated energy bill format debate at my parents, I'm not surprised that I have ended up with a need for junk food!

A well earned trip to KFC and I'm a satisfied bunny. Im not literally a bunny as that would A: be very weird ( can you imagine a spontaneous explosion of rabbit ears and tail) b: A real money maker - kids parties here I come or secret option number 3 (or c:) really sick- can you imagine a rabbit sitting in a car munching on a chicken burger. kinda sureal.

I am now bored, I have spent 3 hours on Sims 3. If only I could design my life in such a manner. Decorate house, pet cat, feed cat, sing at bar, buy new car, love new car smell (enough to make me really happy) , date local bar manager, dump bar manager, be sad, eat kiwi lime pie, be happy , sleep until fully rested.

Iv been listening to the local radio station all day. You know your getting older when your latest purchase is the best thing you have EVER bought.. Yes, I have bought a little personal radio with a built in speaker. Initially it was for the football on a saturday. The DAB radio just doesn't like it when the router is on so an AM/FM radio was needed. However this little radio has been all round the place with me, bathroom , kitchen, study and even the bedroom.However, I feel sorry for the little thing having repeated itself all day. I think I have heard that a new TV film is being made of liz taylor about 12 times, Mr Beiber's new song about 7 and also that tomorrows weather is going to be 'shocking'. Great , just what I want to  hear. I suppose that means I will be playing the sims tomorrow also.

Or....... I could read my kindle (I love my kindle). Currently, i am of course reading a star wars novel. However this one is a little different, its seems as though its full of zombies! excellent! Of course it has Han Solo and Chewie in it. I haven't got far enough yet to see if they survive, but I'm pretty sure they do considering its based before A New hope. Its a bit like watching the titanic, you know the ending already but there is this little atom of curiosity that thinks "maybe they won't die and the boat won't sink - just this once".

I have also noticed that ,make up makes me look my age. Never again.

The Inevitable

Well, here we go . I have started a blog. I have no idea what I'm going to write about but I suppose that's the beauty of having one. I can write about everything and nothing,

Today, after deciding to spend the whole day in my PJ's (like a right Jezza Kyle addict), I was beckoned to the parental's house to 'sort out' the energy bill. Great , I'm off and I'm still nagged.

This doesn't sound to bad but I can assure you that I could really do without the obvious impending argument that will emerge about things out of my control. For example, "why did you buy that there? you could have got that cheaper by driving 30 miles away from home to get it £1 cheaper in a different store!
Or " If you stopped paying those prices for things - they would have to bring the price down eventually! ( yes, they probably would in 10 years when said item is out of date or extremely unfashionable. Hence the reason I now ignore advice from others regarding purchases.

So , off I go to get some more blogger fodder for anyone to read. if anyone is gonna bother to ......hmmph